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  As he led her to the foot of a modern spiral staircase that ascended to the upper floors through an opened door to her side Marianne glimpsed what she assumed must be the living room. A tasteful gallery of large framed photographic prints caught her attention. Even from a distance they looked sensational.

  Following her riveted gaze, Eduardo stilled beside her.

  ‘Can I look?’ she asked, her mouth drying nervously in case he refused.

  ‘Be my guest.’ The broad shoulders lifted in a nonchalant shrug.

  There were various stunning portraits of extraordinarily beautiful women—young and old—scenes that captured the colour and excitement of the country’s famed carnaval, and nature photographs that suggested they might possibly have been taken deep inside the Amazon jungle. But, whatever the subject, each was executed in a way that made the viewer stare in wonder at its extraordinary beauty and the consummate skill and genius of the photographer.

  ‘These are simply stunning, Eduardo.’ As the words left Marianne’s lips she recalled that day in the snowy English town when she had spied a look on his face that had definitely reacted to her comment about music being her passion. It had always made her wonder. Then she remembered the look of excited recognition from the young man arranging the car hire at the airport, and mused if there was a connection.

  ‘You took these?’

  ‘Yes…I took them,’ he said, sighing softly. Eduardo’s smile was not quite even. ‘This is—was my passion’

  ‘Was?’ Her heart thudding—because she suddenly knew that the accident had cost him much more than she’d first believed—Marianne looked at him straight. ‘If it’s your passion, then how can you even think of giving it up?’

  Jamming his hands into the back pockets of his jeans, Eduardo moved his head slowly from side to side. ‘I was not in my right mind when I made that decision. I was hurting and angry and I did not feel that I deserved to do the thing I loved.’

  ‘Because your wife died and you lived?’

  He scraped his hand through his hair, and his expression was momentarily anguished. ‘I should have been driving that night…not her. I was the better driver…the one who knew most about handling such a powerful car!’

  ‘And how long are you going to go on blaming yourself for the accident, Eduardo—for the rest of your life? Did you spill oil on the road? These terrible things happen from time to time, and because we have no control over events we feel helpless and afraid, and we start believing we are the cause of them. We stop thinking clearly and drive ourselves crazy with “what-ifs”. Well, in my opinion you’ve suffered enough. You’ve endured countless operations to mend your leg, and tortured yourself with guilt night after night since the accident happened. Now you’ve got to try and put the past behind you…make your life over again.’

  ‘Like you have?’

  ‘Like I’m trying to.’ Suddenly self-conscious, Marianne knew her smile was a little awkward. ‘We’re all a work in progress.’

  ‘You are right, as always, Marianne. Seeing this gallery again, I realise I cannot and do not want to give it up at all. This is what I came here to do…what makes me happy.’

  ‘And it is your gift to the world, Eduardo. That’s why you must never, ever think of giving it up again!’

  Daring to take the initiative, Marianne moved closer to wrap her arms round his waist. The sensation was so heavenly that for a moment or two she laid her head against his chest, breathing in his warm, musky cologne and happily listening to the strong steady beat of his heart. It was on her lips to say I love you… But at the last minute the words stayed inside her throat unsaid, that old fear of being left or rejected keeping them prisoner.

  ‘You know what I want to do now, don’t you?’ Kissing the top of her head, Eduardo folded his arms tightly around her, urging her closer.

  Feeling his hardness strain against his jeans and press into her belly, Marianne curved her lips into a knowing little smile against the cool linen of his shirt. ‘Take me to bed?’

  ‘My favourite words.’

  Eduardo’s lips found hers and hungrily claimed them…

  Chapter Twelve

  THEY were sitting outside on the terrace of a fashionable bar in one of the chic neighborhoods backing onto the beach. Some of the wealthier locals frequented it. On the small stage inside was a sultry female singer, backed by a colourful and enthusiastic samba band. Eduardo had told Marianne before they went in that the bar had been a regular haunt of his—a place where he would more than likely encounter friends and neighbours he’d known for years—and had asked if she minded that people might stop to say hello?

  Seeing the mixture of concern and doubt in his eyes, Marianne had hastened to reassure him, sliding her hand into his and drawing nearer. Intimacy and love had made her bolder. Inside, a strong desire was growing to let Eduardo see that she would be a support to him for as long as he needed her. She hoped that that might just be for ever, but just knowing that he was at last open to being with people again—would not be shutting himself away through guilt and pain as he had done in England—filled her heart with hope and gratitude for the change.

  And, indeed, a steady stream of well-dressed people did stop by their table as they sat companionably listening to the music and sipping their cocktails. Each and every one of them greeted Eduardo as if he had returned from the dead—such was their pleasure and joy at seeing him. They were also extremely respectful towards Marianne—not one of them remotely regarding her as though she were a usurper.

  When they finally had a moment to themselves, Marianne leaned across the octagonal wooden table, the gentle sound of samba music still playing in the background, and commented, ‘All your friends are so glamorous! I feel like I’ve wandered onto the set of High Society—distinctly underdressed in comparison!’ Glancing uncertainly down at the pale lime linen trousers she’d donned, along with a plain white gypsy-style blouse, she knew that although they were clean and freshly ironed they had definitely seen better days.

  ‘Brazilians love to dress well—they believe you are what you appear to be, and that the world treats you better if you take pride in yourself.’ Her handsome companion cupped her face, casting his tender gaze over every feature, not hiding his admiration. ‘You have nothing to worry about, my angel…You are easily the most beautiful woman in the room…with or without clothes!’

  ‘Eduardo…please!’ She blushed hard, in case anyone had overheard, and didn’t see the tall, statuesque blonde wearing a figure-hugging black skirt and blue satin low-necked blouse heading towards their table until she stood right in front of them.

  ‘Com licença…Senhor De Souza…you probably don’t remember me, but I’m a journalist working for a Rio newspaper on the arts page and I was a friend of your wife’s. My name is Melissa Jordan…originally from New York. We met once at a party in Copacabana.’

  Eduardo politely rose to his feet to shake her hand. For an instant Marianne thought she saw a flash of hot colour sweep his jaw—as though he were embarrassed. Whether because he had no memory of the woman or because she’d been a friend of his wife’s she had no clue.

  In the next second, Miss Jordan herself cleared up the confusion.

  ‘You don’t remember me, do you?’

  Her tone was shrilly accusing, even unbalanced as she studied Eduardo.

  Marianne felt a small shiver of distinct unease roll down her spine.

  ‘Why should you?’ the woman continued, swaying a little where she stood.

  Had she had too much to drink? Worriedly, Marianne realised that she had. ‘We hardly move in the same élite circles, do we? Thank God your wife wasn’t a snob, like you! No wonder she’d had enough of being married to you…I heard she was pretty sick of your philandering too! Who’s this?’ The brittle ice-blue gaze of the blonde swung down to Marianne, who was still seated. ‘Your latest little bedmate? How fortunate for you that your wife died when she did…it saved you having to pay a ton of alimony to keep he
r quiet about your antics, didn’t it? We wouldn’t want the newspapers printing a story about their best-loved photographer having a less than perfect marriage, now, would we?’

  ‘I think you have said quite enough for one day, Miss Jordan, and now you had better leave. All you are doing is causing embarrassment to yourself, as well as spoiling other people’s enjoyment of their evening.’ Speaking quietly but firmly, Eduardo put his hand beneath the woman’s elbow, as if to steer her in another direction, but she instantly shook it off and scowled at him.

  ‘Leave me alone! I know your type…spoilt rich playboy who thinks he can treat women however the hell he likes! I can find my own way out, thank you very much!’

  The blonde swayed and stumbled, and would have gone crashing to the ground if Eduardo hadn’t steadied her just in time. By now some of the patrons at the other tables on the glamorous terrace, with the awesome sight of Sugar Loaf Mountain looming in the distance, had turned to see what all the commotion was about. Meantime, Marianne’s body had gone from burning hot to icy cold at the vitriolic content of Melissa Jordan’s horrible little speech.

  Catching the barely discernible nod of Eduardo’s head as he turned his gaze towards the part of the restaurant that was under cover, she wasn’t surprised to see the smartly suited manager appear. With a murmured apology to Eduardo and Marianne he escorted the intoxicated journalist from the building.

  As he returned to his seat, Marianne saw that the incident had definitely disturbed Eduardo, but he hid his discomfort well. It was only because she was coming to know his every little frown, nuance and guarded look so well that she knew he was shaken at all.

  Leaning back in his chair, he took a moment to straighten the cuffs on his jacket and run his fingers round the rim of his shirt collar. His smile at her was brief as well as controlled, she saw.

  ‘I truly regret that happened just then,’ he remarked, his voice deliberately lowered. ‘I hope it won’t spoil our own evening.’

  ‘Did you know her?’ Marianne asked, secretly appalled at the doubt she heard in her own voice. But how could she help having doubts when the things the woman had said had struck right at the heart of her deepest insecurities, causing all kinds of havoc inside her?

  ‘At first I thought not.’ Sighing, Eduardo leant his arms on the table, casually linking his hands. ‘But when she mentioned the party in Copacabana I realised that I had met her before, and on that occasion too she made a complete nuisance of herself.’

  ‘So she was a friend of your wife’s?’

  ‘An acquaintance, that is all. Eliana did not particularly like her, as I recall. But occasionally at those parties and fundraising events we attended there were people on the periphery who saw them as an opportunity to somehow advance themselves. People like Melissa Jordan. She asked me to help her get a promotion by putting in a good word about her to the editor of the paper on which she worked—a man who is a personal friend of mine. I will help anyone who is genuinely in need, but her request was so blatant…demanding, even…that I am afraid I had to put her in her place and decline. She clearly still bears a grudge against me for that.’

  ‘And the things she said alluding to—to you seeing other women when you were married?’

  Marianne was suddenly feeling so distressed that her throat was threatening to close. Eduardo’s calmly voiced explanation sounded both plausible and rational, but how did she know for sure he was telling her the truth? She loved him to distraction, but she wasn’t naïve enough to believe that love couldn’t make you blind to a lover’s faults.

  ‘You seriously think I would behave in such an abominable way?’

  ‘I—I don’t know…I mean, I…’ Miserably Marianne hung her head, her heart pounding so hard that her chest hurt.

  ‘Come!’ Pushing to his feet Eduardo glared at her, then beckoned a nearby waiter, at the same time throwing some notes onto the table to cover their bill. ‘We will go home. The evening has been ruined after all, and I really have no desire to stay here any longer.’

  Standing on the balcony, listening to the Atlantic waves surge onto the distant shoreline then away again, Eduardo left the drink in his glass untouched as he stared out at the horizon. The sun had long gone down, and over and over again as he stood there in the moonlight he recounted that distasteful scene in the bar. Had Eliana really confided in the pushy journalist that night at the party, telling her that her marriage was in trouble? All it would have taken was an off-the-cuff unguarded comment and someone like Melissa Jordan, with her eye on the main chance and a talent for utilising her spite and making mischief, could have easily assumed that ‘in trouble’ meant Eduardo was seeing other women.

  But even during their most trying times together he never would have cheated on his wife. Not even when Eliana had turned on him, threatening to have an affair because he had grown so cold towards her. Eduardo hadn’t meant to be cold. He had just realised that his feelings were not the same any more…that they wanted different things, were pulling in different directions. How could they reconcile that? No, he concluded, Melissa Jordan had probably just made up that sordid little story about him ‘philandering’ because she was miffed at him for not succumbing to her pressure to help with promotion at work.

  Bringing his mind firmly back to the present—far more crucial right then than what had happened in the past—Eduardo knew he was anxious to heal the disturbing rift that had so suddenly and shockingly opened between him and Marianne. He should have healed it straight away, on their return from the restaurant, but he had been so disappointed and angry that she would believe for even a moment that he was any of those despicable things the journalist had suggested he was that he hadn’t trusted himself to be rational. So when she had declared she was tired and was going to bed he hadn’t stopped her—even when he had seen by her pale, sorrowful face that she was distraught.

  He swore…calling himself a not very complimentary name. Surveying his drink, he raised the glass to his lips, tipped back his head, and winced as the aged malt whisky hit the back of his throat and then swirled hotly into his stomach. She was too good for him, he thought miserably, resting the empty glass on the wrought-iron table behind him. He could not exactly blame her for believing the worst about him when from the start he had put up almost insurmountable barriers. It would serve him right if she walked out and never came back.

  A spasm of profound anguish criss-crossed his chest and another violent expletive left his lips.

  ‘It’s such a beautiful night.’

  Glancing up in shock, he saw Marianne standing in the patio doorway. She was wearing a knee-length white broderie-anglaise nightdress with delicate puffed sleeves. Her lovely hair was loose down her back and her feet were bare. Everything inside Eduardo tightened with almost unbearable longing at the sight of her.

  ‘I didn’t mean to disbelieve you back at the restaurant…You should know by now how much I care about you, or I wouldn’t even be here.’ Stepping out onto the balcony, she hugged her slender arms over her chest. ‘But I do want to know about your marriage, Eduardo. How can I stay if there are secrets between us?’

  ‘You are perfectly right.’ His mouth compressed a little. ‘There should be no secrets between us. The truth is that before she died Eliana and I had talked about divorce.’

  Smoothing his hand over his mildly aching hip, but disregarding his walking cane, Eduardo moved a little closer to Marianne. The scent of Tipuana trees and the baked heat of the day floated on the air between them, even as the gentlest breeze lifted some strands of her hair.

  ‘We had been married for ten years, and inevitably during that time we both changed quite a lot. My father had a coffee plantation, which I inherited when I was twenty-six and sold when I was twenty-seven. That was when Eliana and I got married. Managing the plantation didn’t interest me, but photography did—so I pursued it as my career and was fortunate enough to make a name for myself. I had inherited a great deal of money from my father’s estate,
besides the money from selling the plantation, and I was making a very good living from my photography.

  ‘Eliana had become a famous soap star, and she loved the good life…parties, fast cars, holidays abroad, haute couture clothes…To cut a long story short, she was becoming increasingly materialistic and ego-driven. Whilst I…’ he paused to give Marianne a self-deprecating shrug ‘…I was becoming more aware of my responsibility as custodian of the great wealth I had at my disposal, and more interested in discovering how best I could help those less fortunate than myself.

  ‘Eliana grew unhappy at the amount of time I spent in that pursuit rather than attending tedious celebrity parties, or going on holiday after holiday, or accompanying her to the fashion hotspots of the world to see the catwalk shows that she loved…The tension and the rows between us worsened daily, until finally I could take no more. I asked her for a divorce and she agreed.’

  Reaching the next part of his story—the part he had the heaviest regret about—Eduardo paused to rub his chest, feeling it tighten uncomfortably. He saw Marianne’s gaze narrow with concern.

  ‘Are you all right?’ she asked.

  ‘I am fine. I will finish telling you everything. I was at home one night at our estate in the country when she came back from a ball she’d attended—hosted by some aristo she’d met at a fashion show—and that night she was like the Eliana I’d known years back, when we first met. She was happy and—and suddenly affectionate towards me, and told me she wanted to talk about a reconciliation.’

  Feeling himself colour, Eduardo nevertheless did not flinch from continuing.

  ‘The inevitable happened. We spent the night together. But the following day when I was back at work I realised that I had not really wanted it to happen at all…that it had been a moment of weakness I was not proud of. I still wanted a divorce. I rang Eliana and told her the decision I had made. To my surprise she accepted it, telling me that she too thought it had been a mistake. The estate was vast enough for us to share residency without constantly bumping into each other, and so we agreed that was what we would do until the divorce came through.